I’m old enough (young
enough?) that when I was little, I saw Disney princess movies in the theatre. I
remember loving Ariel but being terrified of Ursula. I remember dreaming of
having a library like the Beast’s and of visiting a quaint little French village
like Belle’s. I have loved The Little Mermaid, Beauty and the
Beast, and fairy tales ever since.
Last week, a friend and I had tickets to see The Book of Mormon at the
Aronoff Center in downtown Cincinnati. The show started at 7:30, we had dinner
reservations for 5:30 at an elegant restaurant called Boca, and we arrived
downtown around 4:30. With about an hour to spare, we decided to stop in The
Booksellers of Fountain Square bookstore.
I’d been to The Booksellers once before prior to the Bengals playoff
game against the Chargers. I had an extra hour that day, too. I loved it the
moment I stepped inside. The smell of coffee greeted me along with the
comforting scent of new books. The walls were painted a soft green and the
shelves were chocolate brown. I wandered through until I reached the YA section
near the back. This is the first place I took my friend last week.
We were looking for a specific YA book—the name of which is irrelevant
at this point—when I spotted a different one. This one had a green cover, a
dark-haired girl in a gorgeous red gown standing on a bridge and facing away
from me, and a fairy tale castle nestled among mountains in the background.
DOON by Carey Corp and Lorie Langdon. The cover was beautiful, but what also
drew my attention was a small sticker in the bottom left corner of the book. The
Booksellers of Fountain Square Autographed Copy the sticker said. I picked
up the book. Inside, Carey Corp had signed her name and added the message Cross
the bridge! That was enough for me. This book was mine.
I showed the book to my friend because I knew she loved fairy tales—I’d
once let her borrow ENCHANTED by Alethea Kontis and THE TREACHERY OF BEAUTIFUL
THINGS by Ruth Long. Luckily, we didn’t have to fight over this signed copy because
there were two more on the shelf. We each bought DOON before settling down with
some coffee to wait for our Boca reservations. Boca was delicious and The Book
of Mormon was hilarious, but the most important part of that evening was our
discovery of DOON.
I finished DOON on Wednesday and the thing that strikes me most is that
it’s about two American girls, best friends, who find an enchanted bridge that
allows them to cross into the fairy tale kingdom called Doon. I’d like to say
that my friend and I, two American girls, found an enchanted land that day last
week, but what we really found was an enchanted bookstore and an enchanted
book.
The closest I’ll ever get to Doon may be a high school trip to Scotland,
but that doesn’t matter—I gave DOON a five star rating on Goodreads. I loved
this book. It’s a fairy tale. It’s about best friends and handsome princes. It
takes place in Scotland and Carey Corp and Lorie Langdon capture the Scottish
accent so well that the word dinna will echo in my head for days. It’s
about an evil witch, true love, danger, and happiness. Its end is both—spoiler
alert—perfect and heartbreaking.
If you like fairy tales, YA, hot guys, or best friends, you should read
DOON. You should also stop by The Booksellers (if you live in Cincinnati or are
lucky enough to pass through) and see if you can find your own magic there. I,
meanwhile, will dream of visiting Doon while I wait for DOON’s sequel.
my quest to publish my first young adult novel, read all the books, and make writing connections
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Humor? Are you sure?
One of my critique partners and I have been slinging
names at each other’s main characters for the last week or so. I called his MC
an ass and he called mine a buzzkill. To be fair, I started it; to be honest,
we’re both right. His MC is trying to be funny and charming, but comes off as a
jerk. My MC is always brooding, dark and gloomy, and reminds me of Angel in Angel. Any Whedonites out there? Anyone
remember how annoying Angel was? Or was that just me?
I helped my CP by pointing out where his MC went wrong
and why it bothered me so much. He’s made changes since then and his character
comes across better, though sometimes his humor and thoughts still border on
ass-ish. I told him I like it this way. It makes me laugh, and that’s good
thing.
As for my buzzkill MC, my CP suggested I add some humor.
It’s funny that he said this. A Pitch Wars mentor told me she didn’t pick my MS
because it didn’t have any humor in it; another of my CPs has a ton of humor in
her MS; and, few days ago I finished reading Mindy McGinnis’s NOT A DROP TO DRINK
and I remember she mentioned in her acknowledgments how one of her CPs helped
her add emotional accessibility to her MC. That’s part of what my CP was trying
to tell me—my MC wasn’t likeable as she was. She needed to have more depth,
which will help readers connect to her and enjoy the story more. Therein lies
my CP’s request for humor.
Problem is, I don’t do humor. Seriously. (Sorry about
this adverb, CP!) For those of you that read my blog, have you laughed at
anything I’ve written? I’m horrible at telling a joke—whenever I try, it falls
flat and anyone listening stares at me. If I’m not trying to tell a joke but if
I’m trying to be funny, my words come out tainted with sarcasm, which also
kills the humor. Then there are the times when I don’t mean to tell a joke or
be funny, but everyone laughs at me anyway even though I have no idea why.
I also have trouble getting into comedy on TV and in
movies. There are very few comedy TV shows that I like because most of them
just aren’t funny to me. The exceptions are The
Big Bang Theory, Friends, and…well,
I can’t come up with anything else off the top of my head. As for movies, a
huge example is that I don’t find Will Farrell funny, which I think is a rare
thing. The only movie I like him in is Stranger
than Fiction, though I think this is more because of his interactions with Emma
Thompson than because of his humor. Other than that, I don’t laugh at Will
Farrell, not in Talladega Nights, not
in Elf, not in The Anchorman. The same is true for a lot of comedic actors—Will Farrell’s
just the first one that came to mind.
This isn’t to say no movies or TV shows are funny to me.
My humor’s darker than average and I prefer serious subjects. Still, there’s no
denying that there are entertaining lines in movies like Love Actually or The Avengers
(Whedonites!) and in TV shows like The
Vampire Diaries and (more for fellow Whedonites!) Firefly.
So maybe after all of this, you can see why when my CP
told me to add humor to my book and main character I wanted to say, “Humor? Are
you sure? Don’t you know me at all?”
Thing is, he doesn’t really know me. We met online and we email back and forth,
but we live hours apart so it’s not like we’ve ever met for drinks or anything.
Still, my CP has got a point. My MC needs to be more
accessible. I’ve started to dig through my MS, searching for opportunities for
something funny. I’m hoping that what I’m adding comes off as funny and not
something awkward that doesn’t at least make readers smile. I’ve found several scenes
that might work. I’ll find more. After, I’ll email my MS to the CP who pointed
out this flaw, as well as to the one who excels at making her MC funny. And
after that, my MS will be that much better and will have a better chance of
catching agents’ attention.
Sunday, January 26, 2014
Query Fear
I
wrote in my last post (This Isn’t the End)
that I’m giving up contests so that I can focus on querying. It’s a good call—I
still believe that—but I’m hesitant to start sending out queries. It’s not that
I don’t think my MS is ready. One of my CPs says over and over how excited she
is for me to query because she thinks my MS is in a great place and she loves
it. It’s not that I don’t know how to query. I’ve done that before with a
different MS. It’s also not that I fear rejections. Again, I’ve queried before
and I know how this works. So what’s the problem?
I’m
scared to query.
I
love my MS, my CP loves my MS, and it’s ready to be queried. The problem is I
don’t know if agents will love my MS.
It didn’t do well in contests, though I know those things are so subjective
that they’re not representative of the way agents will react. Or is that not
true? Agents are subjective, too. I’ve gotten rejections where the agent basically
said my (other) MS wasn’t right for them. That doesn’t mean my MS was bad; it
means they didn’t love it enough to represent it. Agents spend so much time
with your MS that they have to be passionate about it. You have to find the
right agent at the right time. So is there an agent out there who will be
passionate about my MS like my CP is? I don’t know.
There’s
only one way to find out, of course, and that’s querying. Still, I’m hesitant.
I’m
also analytical and think far ahead—maybe too far ahead for my own good (though
not far enough to be good at strategic games like chess). What if agents don’t like my MS? What then? There’s
always the option to query again, but a lot of blog posts and online articles I’ve
read state that this is an iffy option. Some agents don’t like to be queried an
MS they’ve already rejected even if it’s been over a year and you’ve made
significant changes. Not to mention that if they didn’t like it the first time
but are amenable to querying again, what’s going to change their minds about it
the second time?
If
rejections happen—and yes, I know they will—and if I reach the point where no
agents offer representation and if I decide against querying again, what’s my
next option? Well, there’s the MS I queried this past fall. It needs a lot of
revisions, including in the query and a new beginning (see my post Let’s NOT Start at the Very Beginning
for more on that). I don’t know, once I’ve made changes, that agents would even
recognize it from the first time around. So there’s that…except that I’d be
querying again.
My
other option? I start over. I write another MS. I have a file folder full of
more story ideas, a few of which I’ve been thinking about a lot lately. I pick
one and write it. I send it to my CPs and make revisions, I write a query and
ask others to help me make it better, and then I query that MS. This option
would take me at least a year, probably more. *headdesk* We writers use this
phrase a lot on Twitter. It’s for embarrassment, for those hopeless days, for
the feeling in your gut that you have to keep going no matter how much you don’t
want to at that moment. Writing and prepping another MS is a ton of work and
there’s no guarantee that it’d be worth it.
But
I’ll say what I’ve said many times before—I want to be published. I’ll do what
it takes. I’ll quash my query fear, I’ll query this MS, and I’ll see what
happens. Then I’ll decide what comes next.
Thursday, January 23, 2014
This Isn't the End
I hate cold. Any temperatures below fifty Fahrenheit and
I want to either hibernate or fly south for the winter. It’s not surprising
then that I’m not a fan of snow—it has to be cold to snow. Plus, in Cincinnati
even a few snowflakes can mess up traffic so bad that it can take me two hours for
the twenty-three miles from work to home. Let’s not forget that for the past
three days my neighborhood’s roads have been covered in some kind of ice-snow amalgam
that makes me slide at least once per trip. Sure, sliding’s fun the first two
or three times, but after that it’s not so fun anymore.
This isn’t to say that I only have bad things to say
about snow. Snow’s pretty when I can stay inside by our fire and cuddle up with
a good book. It was also amazing a few summers ago to hike to the snowline on
Mt. Rainier. Overall though, I wish snow were something that happened at warmer
temperatures.
If I’m not fond of cold, winter, and snow, you’d think I’d
be all for summer sun. You’re partly right—I do love when it’s warm out. There’s
nothing more satisfying on a summer’s night than to sit on our desk and watch the
sun set or to go to a Reds game and not have to worry about how many layers I
should take. Still, my relationship with the sun is tenuous. I’m fair-skinned
so I burn easily. One time in Ireland, when I was on the Aran Islands and
it was sunny, I smeared on some stick sunblock. Turns out, I didn’t rub it in
right, so I ended up looking like a red and white zebra. Embarrassing at best.
I hated the sun for a week.
Yes, I’m sure you’re wondering why I’m ranting about sun
and snow. Truth is, I found out this morning that I didn’t make it into
Michelle Hauck and Amy Trueblood’s Sun vs. Snow contest. I’d like to blame it
on the fact that I’m not overly fond of sun or snow—but we all know that had
nothing to do with it. My MS just wasn’t right for them or the contest. It’s
subjective, I know, but that doesn’t make me feel much better. I want to ask
why they didn’t pick me. I want to know what’s wrong with what I wrote. The
answer could be there’s nothing wrong—it just wasn’t what they wanted. Still,
it’s getting hard to believe that. It doesn’t help to see the success of writer
friends. (See my post from last December called The Hard Stuff for more on this.) All I keep thinking is lyrics to
Bon Iver’s Holocene, which I had on
repeat this morning. I was not
magnificent.
There’s an upside to Holocene,
however. I can’t begin to tell you what the song might actually mean—poetry and
me, we don’t get along so well—but other lyrics are I could see for miles, miles, miles. I feel a positive connotation
when he sings these words. That helps keep the hope alive.
Hope is so important for me in this process. I renamed my
blog a few weeks ago to include the words hope
and grit because I don’t think I
could make it through this without them. Hope is what keeps me entering
contests and thinking that someday my dream will happen. Grit is my
determination to keep moving forward, to learn from everything I experience,
and to never give up, not until I get a book published. After all, a girl’s
gotta have a goal, even if it’s a longshot at best.
Right, so, what now? I ask myself this after every contest.
What currently helps with my hope is an email I got on Tuesday. It made my day—though
that’s all the details you’re getting unless you’re one of my CPs. What helps
with my grit is that losing this contest isn’t the end. I haven’t begun to
query my MS, but I’m thinking it’s about time for that, or at least time to
stop with contests and start serious preparations for querying.
So I’m thinking I’ll start Lent a little early this year
and give up contests. I’ll cheer on my writer friends who made these recent
ones and hope for their success. I’ll hunker down and keep at it, just not
through contests, not for now.
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Lucky Number JEIL1TZZ
As you know, I like to reflect on contests after they're over. On a whim last Monday, I sent my first 250 words to the Authoress's January Secret Agent contest. The winners were revealed yesterday afternoon...so here's my reflection:
The contest was simple. The number of entries was
unlimited and the fifty winners would be drawn by a bot, ensuring no human bias
(or work) in the selection. The secret agent, the rules also said, was
interested in historical fiction, historical romance, and all genres of YA. I
had a feeling the secret agent would be more selective than any genre of YA, but that didn’t mean he/she
wouldn’t want mine. There was no way to know how many other people would submit
and the rules were clear that I could only submit once (at least for awhile,
anyway). Still, I was waiting for Michelle Hauck and Amy Trueblood’s Sun vs.
Snow contest. No harm could come from entering, so I did.
Moments after sending my entry, I received an automated
response from the Authoress’s email telling me that JEIL1TZZ was my lucky
number.
Later that night, the contest winners were posted on the
Authoress’s blog. I started scanning the list, searching for that key J at the
beginning of my lucky number. No such
luck, I thought as I read down the list—until a few from the bottom. There
was number JEIL1TZZ. I was more stunned than anything.
By Wednesday, my first 250 words were on the Authoress’s
blog for anyone to read. Let me repeat that because, wow. MY FIRST 250 WORDS
WERE ON THE AUTHORESS’S BLOG FOR ANYONE TO READ. I’d entered a contest, made it
past the first round, and now my words were on the web. Again, wow.
As a part of getting into the contest, I had to comment
on at least five entries. Since I’d submitted in YA sci-fi, I searched the list
for those first, seeking out the ones that were somewhat similar to mine. I
treated those first, precious words like they belonged to one of my CPs and
told them what I liked and what I thought might need some revision. Other
writers did the same for mine.
Then came the waiting. The contest was vague about a lot of
things, one of which was how long until the secret agent would pop by and review
the entries. I figured that wouldn’t be until the weekend. Turns out, I was
right.
The secret agent’s identity—Taylor Haggerty—was revealed yesterday
morning with a promise of winners to soon follow. I didn’t need to see the list
of winners to know my entry wouldn’t be among them. Ms. Haggerty’s short bio
mentioned that she was looking for historical fantasy, friendship stories, and
contemporary with unique settings. My MS fit none of those. True enough, when
the winners were posted yesterday afternoon, my entry was not among them.
While it would have been nice to be chosen, it’s hard to
be disappointed when you know your MS wasn’t what the agent wanted. That’s the thing
about a secret agent contest—you never know what the agent’s interests are. At
least when querying you know you’re sending your MS to an agent that wants your
genre. That increases your chances of success.
So, no worries. I’m pressing on. I’m taking the comments
from my fellow winners and changing the necessary things. I’ve entered my MS for
the Sun vs. Snow contest. Even more, I’m looking forward to the days when I
will query.
Sunday, January 19, 2014
I'm the mouse & that's my cookie (strawberry?)
I’m
dashing this post off in a few minutes because—as you’ll soon understand—I have
THINGS TO DO.
Confession:
I have a problem. I need a group like the AA where I can go, sit in a chair
circle, and say, “I’m Tracy. I’m addicted to books.” I can picture everyone
rolling their eyes, but that’s how I feel right now. Let me explain. I’d lean
forward in my chair and say, “It all started back when….” I’d tell about this
PB called The Little Mouse, The Red Ripe Strawberry, and The Big Hungry Bear by
Don and Audrey Wood. It’s about this mouse that would do anything for a
strawberry but is terrified that this bear will get to it first. It’s the first
book I ever loved and I’ve loved a great many since, I’d say.
Okay,
okay, this AA thing may be a little over the top. Let’s go with something
simpler, like the PB If You Give a Mouse a Cookie by Laura Joffe Numeroff. Are you
familiar with this book? If not, go read it now. It’ll take you, like, ten
minutes. I haven’t read it in years, but I remember the gist. You give a mouse
a cookie and that mouse is going to want ALL THE THINGS. This is me and books.
I start and I don’t want to stop until I’ve finished.
It’s
bad enough that I have this problem with published books. It took me only a
couple of days to read Elizabeth LaBan’s THE TRAGEDY PAPER. I finished it two
days ago and I can’t stop thinking about it. Yes, it’s that good. Read that
one, too—though it’ll take you awhile longer than ten minutes.
I
also have this problem with my CPs’ books. My first CP’s MS, I read it in one
day, just twelve hours, a mini marathon over winter break. I liked it that
much. I didn’t want to put it down, plus I was having a great time making
comments to let her know what I was thinking, what I loved and what I thought
she needed more of (like the MC’s hot crush). I’d read a few chapters before
that day and she’d read a few of mine—we had to make sure we were right for
each other—but when she sent me the full MS, I was in until I finished.
Know
what? IT’S HAPPENED AGAIN. Yesterday I was reading a few chapters from another
CP. I’d read a few before and had liked it, but what I read yesterday hooked me
more. I was in and I wanted it all. I warned my CP that I had a habit of
devouring books. I warned him what happened with my other CP. He didn’t mind, I
guess, because within a few hours, his full MS was in my inbox. He gave me a
cookie with those first few chapters and I wanted all the rest. My appetite for
good books is insatiable.
The
problem now? I have plans for today (part of why I’m dashing off this post as
quickly as I can), but what I really want is to spend the day with my CP’s MS.
I want to do what I did with that first MS and not stop until it’s over. But it’s
not winter break. I don’t have a full day. I’m seeing my family today and then
the next five days I have to make flavors. I feel like my CP has given me the
cookie and offered me everything else, but all my other obligations are
withholding that everything else, taunting me that I can’t go to the ball until
I finish my chores. Too many analogies? How about one more? I feel like I’ve
seen that red, ripe strawberry but the big hungry bear is about to get to it
first. So I’m going to post this post, and then I’m going to do what I have to
do so that later, if I’m lucky, I can read.
Thursday, January 16, 2014
Acting Lessons
One
of my CPs and I have been talking these last few days about how important all five
senses are when writing. What we’ve learned so far? It’s hard for both of us to
incorporate all senses in every scene. Since I started working for a flavor
company, I’ve had less trouble with writing taste and smell—spending all day, every
day learning what chemicals make what scent or flavor is like doing writing
exercises for forty hours a week. But that’s just taste and smell. What about
the other senses? My CP said I make it look so easy and natural. It may look that
way, I assured her, but I still have to work at it.
I don’t remember the exact requirements for my letter, but I know I took at least one theatre class per year (probably per semester). I also was involved with most of my school’s productions, a play each fall and a musical each spring. If you want proof of this too, here’s a picture of me onstage (in The Curious Savage by John Patrick):
Yes, I know. I had bangs then. My bad hair, however, is not the point. The point is, I learned so much about writing from my theatre classes, plays, and musicals. I didn’t act in all of the plays and musicals—I student directed some and worked on the crew for a couple of others—but I spent a lot of time studying words, people, motivations, reactions, feelings.
Her
comment got me thinking. How do I
know how to write all five senses? I’ve already answered about taste and smell.
But what about the others? From reading, obviously…but that’s not all. What
else?
It
was Cora Carmack’s awesome NA series LOSING IT, FAKING IT, and FINDING IT that
answered the question for me. I read all three of these last week (and if you’re
interested in NA, I highly recommend them). It took me awhile, but I eventually
connected my CP’s question with Carmack’s novels. The MCs in these three novels
were college students who met through their theatre classes. One reason I
connected so well with these characters? I took theatre classes in high school.
I
took so many theatre classes in high school that I lettered in theatre. You
might be laughing at me and thinking, “Aren’t letters for sports? What high
school gives out letters for theatre???”
Mine. If you want proof, here’s a picture of my letter jacket:
I don’t remember the exact requirements for my letter, but I know I took at least one theatre class per year (probably per semester). I also was involved with most of my school’s productions, a play each fall and a musical each spring. If you want proof of this too, here’s a picture of me onstage (in The Curious Savage by John Patrick):
Yes, I know. I had bangs then. My bad hair, however, is not the point. The point is, I learned so much about writing from my theatre classes, plays, and musicals. I didn’t act in all of the plays and musicals—I student directed some and worked on the crew for a couple of others—but I spent a lot of time studying words, people, motivations, reactions, feelings.
The
key thing to know about a script is that the lines are about all you get, aside
from a basic scene setting and a few stage directions. There’s nothing in a
script to tell you how to say each line, where to stand in relation to other
characters, how to react to them, what your character is feeling. You have to
figure these out—you have to create them on your own. Sometimes, our teacher or
director would tell us these things, but most of the time we were on our own.
Sometimes, we even had to write our own scripts.
So
yes, I spent much of high school doing theatre. This is where I learned how to pay attention to every character in
a scene. Any person onstage can be seen by the audience and therefore has to
remain in character at all times. Some
characters have very few lines, but that doesn’t make them any less involved in
the action than the characters that dominate the dialogue.
I
didn’t realize this until my CP and I discussed the five senses, but when I
write I picture the scene as though I’m sitting in the audience, watching my
characters move around a stage. I know where each of them is. I can tell you
what each of them is thinking and why they’re thinking it. I know what they’re saying, what they’ll do
next, and how they’ll react to what the others are saying and doing. As much as
working for a flavor company has taught me about taste and smell, high school
theatre classes taught me about see, hear, and feel. My writing today is better
because of the things I learned through my acting classes years ago.
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